I have had a few anxiety attacks in my life. Most occurred after my mom passed away from cancer almost seven years ago. One a few years ago, days before my wedding. And, last night.
My husband and I decided it was time to buy a house. The process has been quick, in order to get the tax credit by April 30 (moving in before July 1st on a new build). Well... we have decided to build a house out in Cibolo.
As we were preparing to go to the design studio, we sat down to decide what we definitely wanted to "upgrade" and what we could live without. Garden tub with a separate walk-in shower: definitely! Tile throughout the house: maybe later (I prefer wood floors anyway!). So many choices! Then, while adding them all up - the panic began to set in... first, the heart rate increases... then, breathing increases, turns shallow, and a paper bag is needed... my poor husband. "Do you need a bag? Where are the bags? We have no bags?!?! Breathe., but not too fast!"
We managed to make some decisions, and agreed to make other choices at the deco place.
So, we make it to the design studio. Now, I am pretty impressed with the standard things that this builder and community has in place. But, of course, I want to upgrade the carpet to something a little more forgiving (since we have 2 kiddos under the age of 2). The cabinets upgraded... the counter tops... I wanted to bay window in the kitchen nook and the extended patio. In the long run - we would never find anyone willing to enlarge the patio for that cheap later anyway! We will build/add-on our own patio cover next year.
As we finished up, I had to write another check (gulp), but it wasn't as much as I thought it would be (sigh...).
I was proud of BJ (my hubby). We were able to compromise on the brick and siding colors. He gave me input when I asked, but let me pick the colors I wanted. We both agreed on the wall colors, the carpet, floors, tile, etc. He let me pick the kitchen colors because "that's your area". He knows how much I love to be in my kitchen, not to mention - he loves to eat what I make!
So, after that, we were off to meet with the mortgage company. Pretty painless at this point. Just exploring our options and getting all the documentation we need in place. Now, when the time comes to sign all those papers, BJ will be sure to have a paper bag with my name on it handy!
As the build begins in a few weeks, I will post pictures and updates. Exciting and scary - all rolled into one!